VvMichaels It's Amazing how people convience Themselves, that their bullsh*it makes sense... Whatever happened to when I grow up Im gonna do my things my own way...That is because by the time you leave your parents house... Your hoping that their their version of F*uked up conditioning, has not totally taken over your whole way of life. I feel like since I left the house and all I have been doing to trying to get messed way of thinking to rub off and by out of my life ever since, I left the house at 17. Music VvMichaels listen too while Writing This(Click)
Now what do I mean? some people love how they are, and that's fine, but its not for all of us. My mother made us do the church thinng like 5 days a week, seven if she could get away with it. I don't think anyone sins that much. The scray thing for me, was all of the mental punishment's I went through were the talks and mental torture.... They all have talent for it!. The first thing they do is sit you down, and show you how bad you really are, and just when they see that your about ready to break! They love you love and tell how god loves you, but you still need to work on it and let god sort it out for you.
Yeah! in my mothers eye's I was the black Sheep only, becaused she wanted me to be. I'm the product of a 44 year old lie, my mother has been trying to hide all her life with extreme predujdice. That is why I practice the sutra reading, writing and chanting, unproducing myslf to let all that bondage go. That is ture freedom of my journey..
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